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My deconversion from Christianity

This video may come as a shock to many of my subscribers but you read the title correctly. Please watch the whole video and try to understand. I became a Christian in 2000 at the age of 20. I did not want to take a chance on going to the lake of fire, so I just trusted what I read in the Bible. The Bible was so primary to my faith because if the Bible said something not matter how ridiculous it was, I would believe it. I grew in my faith and enjoyed doing apologetics, which is basically making excuses for things in the bible. Many of the questionable things god did were justified because the Bible said he was good. I had multiple conversations with a guy who was a Muslim, and I realized he presupposed that the Quran was true. I wanted to tell him about how Jesus died for his sins, but the Quran rejects that Jesus ever died. I saw I could not reason with this guy as long as he had faith in the Quran. I asked this guy why he believed the Quran was true, and the reasons he gave were very similar to why I trusted the bible. This got me to consider biblical claims in light of extra biblical sources. When I did this I realized there was virtually nothing to verify biblical stories outside of the bible. With the exception of certain people and places having shown to exist. But nothing to verify the supernatural acts. I remember one day I was in my shower which has a skylight. I noticed a rainbow which I had never seen indoors before. In the Bible it says the rainbow is a sign from god that he will never again flood the earth. While showering it was sunny out and not even raining. This made me think of the strictly natural occurrence for the rainbow. This also made me think about the existence of god. Specifically did my experiences with god have natural reasons for occurring? I thought about this and realized there were always natural reasons for things I had attributed to god, or the supernatural. This made me feel kind of empty and alone, so I prayed to god about these concerns I was having. I evaluated the answers I thought I was receiving from god, and realized that these also were manufactured from my mind. I got to the point where I did not care if I received an answer or not, I would just go where the evidence pointed. The more I doubted Christianity the more I prayed to god, and I did this for over two months. I received no answer to my prayers that could not be explained by psychology. I felt free in some ways but empty in others and was on the search for answers. I watched non theistic videos, and re-watched old ones I had criticized with a more reasonable mind and saw that many of them actually made a lot of sense after taking my biblical glasses off. Now I understand how the actions of the biblical god were illogical and often less merciful then we as people would be. Taking all this into consideration I just had to admit to myself that god does not exist. If there is a god it is doing a horrible job of revealing itself to us. April Fools Day. I may be a fool, but not that kind. What is this your Ive deconverted video? No this is my deconversion joke video. Joke video?
It’s an April Fools Day joke video. Oh okay. [laughter]

Jean Kelley



  1. S Baca Posted on April 1, 2014 at 7:49 am

    Man U really had me worried!!

  2. S Baca Posted on April 1, 2014 at 7:50 am

    Why would you do this??

  3. ConservativeMirror Posted on April 1, 2014 at 7:52 am


  4. Wisdom In Red Posted on April 1, 2014 at 8:20 am


  5. jfrontier1 Posted on April 1, 2014 at 8:25 am

    Hehe, good one. 

  6. 1GodOnlyOne Posted on April 1, 2014 at 8:44 am

    "Deconversion" is not a real word, friend: you really shouldn't use it publicly LOL– Also, if you are not a Chriatian right now, then you never werre a Christian.

    For more information, see my video: "I used to be a Christian" is ALWAYS a Lie (Presuppositional Apologetics)

  7. Mike Edmondson Posted on April 1, 2014 at 11:17 am

    Very nice April fools piece!

    Plus I give you kudos for the realistic pose as an atheist. Nicely done and it shows, unlike some Christians, that you understand where nonbelievers come from, their world view if you will.

  8. Donna Diggity Posted on April 1, 2014 at 12:40 pm

    I really was saddened because the Navy did remove the bible.  That was not a joke. And then at the end of your video – with the April Fools joke and all….I didn't know whether to laugh ?   Whew !

  9. shucksful Posted on April 1, 2014 at 12:44 pm

    I can't lie to you… You'll be happy to know you had me going there, for about… 7 seconds? lol! Amen.

  10. ahmalala Posted on April 1, 2014 at 3:10 pm

    The reasons seemed so convincing and far better than most of the ones often given, by atheists, so much so by the end of the video I was more shocked that u really had not deconverted. lol

  11. MrsBarbaraSinclair Posted on April 1, 2014 at 3:37 pm

    ya got me worried, and all I wanted to do was hug ya … now I wanna give ya a spanking lol xxx <3 

  12. MyContext Posted on April 1, 2014 at 3:51 pm

    The upside … you know that belief doesn't make sense… Which puts you ahead of many.

  13. JustAMan400 Posted on April 2, 2014 at 12:39 am

    LoL !!!! the smirk on your face in a few shots gave it away !!! be blessed !!

  14. tnmusicman1 Posted on April 2, 2014 at 3:35 am

    Dang it SHAWN!!!! I'm sitting here with mouth agape and listening to your story thinking "Shawn, you know better than this"!!!!
    (Sigh) I thought I was going to get through this day without a prank!! Congradts, Shawn! You got me at 10:33 pm CST!!! Blessings to you, my friend!

  15. doncooper512 Posted on April 2, 2014 at 11:58 am

    I prayed for you the whole time you were speaking and then my prayer was answered….now go stand with your nose in the corner….lol…whew!

  16. doncooper512 Posted on April 2, 2014 at 11:59 am

    I prayed for you the whole time you were speaking and then my prayer was answered….now go stand with your nose in the corner….lol…whew!

  17. HumanistFox Posted on April 2, 2014 at 9:19 pm

    So… what would it take for you to lose your faith?

  18. D P Posted on May 30, 2014 at 1:56 pm

    Mormonism is a false religion

  19. J Farr Posted on June 23, 2014 at 6:22 pm

    Whew!  For a second there, I thought you were going down the path to be mercilessly tortured forever by God with all the other honest truth-seekers.

    haha – good one.

    Thank God you're not one of those who "follows the evidence wherever it leads", like you mentioned.  I couldn't imagine doing a thing like that.  

    Keep the faith, brother!

  20. Templetonq Posted on September 13, 2014 at 4:03 am

    That's a shame. That's the most sense you've made.

  21. Templetonq Posted on September 13, 2014 at 5:25 am

    Care to explain why you thought it was so funny?

  22. Ronald Wangdra Posted on September 13, 2014 at 8:20 am

    Can you provide an actual rebuttal for those things you claimed were simply "jokes"?

  23. ano nimus Posted on October 30, 2014 at 11:06 pm

    Those things that you said made me a non-beliver an year ago and since then I didn't find any rebuttal to those ideas and I am a closed atheist because of my family. That's weird.

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  25. exZacklee Posted on March 14, 2016 at 3:33 am

    Think you are actually believe the beginning. Think those questions truly bother your heart. Why else would they be in your mind?

  26. RTHA300 Posted on March 20, 2016 at 11:16 pm

    is this nigga ugly ass blind, he dont look at shit when he talk

  27. RTHA300 Posted on March 20, 2016 at 11:18 pm

    you do what you got to do homie, you do need to pray to get some off dat ugliness off first

  28. Deacon Verter Posted on May 11, 2016 at 3:39 pm

    My friend Joe is not color-blind. But, when it comes to cars, Joe has a strange quirk: he calls every car he sees blue. I asked him why and he told me that's just how he defines "blue" when it comes to cars: "compatible with any color of the rainbow." He called me yesterday to say he just repainted his car blue. What sense does that make? None. Now you know what wise people hear when Christians say "God is good." They're are going to say that anyway, no matter what their God does.

  29. Cartooniverse Posted on August 26, 2016 at 5:44 pm

    The way you were reading made it was completely clear that you did not write those words. But at the same time, you made very good points. Joke or no, those points still stand.

  30. Jonathan Ganesh Posted on December 20, 2016 at 1:06 am

    WTF! Once a fool, always a fool!

  31. Demonology validates the Theistic worldview Posted on February 7, 2017 at 10:33 pm

    [The devil always appointed deception/to blind the nations from the Judeo/ChristianGod] ….All pagan-religions and tribal-rituals were inspired by satan,As religions matured,invalid doctrines were institutionalized:demons cemented reincarnation in{Hinduism],naturalism in{Buddhism}and idol-worship in{Chatholicism};they later helped muhammad construct a slaughterhouse{Islam},appeared to joseph smith as angelic-entities{Mormonism}and led charles russell to downgrade jesus divinity{Jehovah'sWitness's}Eventually,false-religions deluded the nations with a convenient lie{many paths to heaven/good-deeds gets you in} ….From ages past satan also used Necromancy productively{belief the dead still wander]. even now,demons utilize haunted-homes[ghosts] and psychic-mediums[channeling] as a stage to mimic the departed.Mimics are allowed to occur the instant we believe the dead become wandering spirits{demons to surely mimic if contact is tried,séance/quija-board}. Scripture eliminates the idea:when men expire,it's heaven/hell,they don't return as ghosts. {demons also use psychics{channeling}to mimic ascended-masters,spirit-guides,angels and aliens,all devices of divination,tarot-cards/crystal-balls/charms/wicca/are demonic] ….Satan initiated the groundwork[for the final delusion}back in the 19thcentury by helping darwin write his book[layin secular ground/for new deceptions};during the 20thcentury,he then began conducting demons to shapeshift as ufos,aliens[abductions]and bigfoot on a regular basis.These tactics helped originate and sustain an atheist/darwin culture.As the decades progressed,media-coverage,t.v.and films about invading aliens eventually nailed the finishing touches for the eventful final delusion:In the final-stretches of a nuclear war, demons will then materialize and intervene as aliens of peace,satan will shapeshift ufo's over the survived-cities as demon-hybrids relate with men on land,religious institutions-to dissolve away as the nations/aliens commence and reform an interstellar global alliance. (world-government/antichrist/alien-delusion)…2 Thessalonians 2:8-11,Genesis 6:4 ….Having read satans schemes,will you still be tricked?To avert hell all you must do is accept jesus as friend,that so difficult?for observational data demons exist click

  32. Debbie R Posted on September 23, 2017 at 3:46 pm

    If we are our own entity, people would not continually all day long do the things they do not want to do. {Because subconsciencely we know it's wrong} Hint God is telling you this. No one can help it because we are guided by the spiritual world. Either God or satan . No one can deny that they continually do things they do not wish to do. We are powerless against the god of this world as the bible say's.
    The next time you find yourself in the situation of being powerless you will remember this post and realize the truth of it. No one can deny this because it happens to everyone daily.It's pure reality. We would be lying to ourselves if we denied that this ever happens to us. And again it's right in the bible. God knew what we would do before we did it. No one can say that they have never done one of these things like eating too much or eating that candy bar when we have diabetes or taking illegal drugs or speaking profanity or smoking knowing it causes lung cancer or lied or stolen or hated someone. Things we wish we had not done in the past……and don't know why we did them. Here's your answer straight from the bible.
    { Romans 7:19-25}
    For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do.
    20 Now if I do that I would not, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me.[satan]
    21 I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil is present with me.
    22 For I delight in the law of God after the inward man:
    23 But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members.[satan]
    24 O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?
    25 I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God; but with the flesh the law of sin.
    Romans 6:15-23
    What then? Are we to sin because we are not under law but under grace? By no means! 16 Do you not know that if you present yourselves to anyone as obedient slaves,[a] you are slaves of the one whom you obey, either of sin,[satan] which leads to death, or of obedience,[God] which leads to righteousness? 17 But thanks be to God, that you who were once slaves of sin have become obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching to which you were committed, 18 and, having been set free from sin, have become slaves of righteousness. 19 I am speaking in human terms, because of your natural limitations. For just as you once presented your members as slaves to impurity and to lawlessness leading to more lawlessness, so now present your members as slaves to righteousness leading to sanctification.
    20 For when you were slaves of sin, you were free in regard to righteousness. 21 But what fruit were you getting at that time from the things of which you are now ashamed? For the end of those things is death. 22 But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves of God, the fruit you get leads to sanctification and its end, eternal life. 23 For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
    satan's job is to destroy the body God has given us and he does a good job by the health of most people today. People on depression medication and obesity are off the charts. When we come to terms with this reality that we are not alone spiritually and the truth of the matter spoken here, all written in the bible, we can then begin to realize that we need God.

  33. Oulaw Renegades Posted on November 2, 2017 at 2:58 pm

    Believing in God or Christ doesn't make u a Christan. Going to church doesn't make u a Christan. Reading the bible doesn't make u a Christan.wearing a cross doesnt make you a Christan. Singing in church doesn't make you a Christan. Praying doesn't make you a Christan. people who say they aren't Christians anymore weren't Christans from the beginning.the majority of churxhes now of days are full of false prophets and Christans.and churches now of making merchandize out of God.You people are ignorant and blind to the TRUTH and of the TRUTH .FACTS

  34. Debbie R Posted on November 28, 2017 at 6:33 pm

    With absolute certainty ,God is real. Once you finally meet Him, there is no mistaking it. The reason people disagree about God is that some have met Him and some have not had the experience yet and the only way to meet him is to repent and accept His Son Jesus as Savior. Just like looking at the picture of a steak or actually tasting one. Two completely different experiences about the same thing only some are actually experiencing God and some are just looking at the picture and complaining that God does not exist because they are failing to do what it takes to know Him.Just like your heart. You have never seen it but you know it exists. God exists but you cannot see him yet in your sinful state or you would die because He is so holy. Hopefully you will put down your pride and accept that you have lived a less than holy life and accept that Jesus paid that price due for those sins and join the millions who know God very well.

  35. Debbie R Posted on January 2, 2018 at 9:31 pm

    Do not give up on God. He never gave up on you.
    You never really knew God . You feel relief because you no longer are bearing your cross. This is a very dangerous place to be.
    God, we pray that as we approach the soon coming of Jesus Christ, let everyone on earth proclaim Him as lord and Savior. God I pray that you would receive every last one of these souls who are hurting because you are the true comforter full of compassion and love. Lord let them feel your mighty presence in their lives. And bring them home one by one we pray. Amen

    Romans 1:19-21
    19 For what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. 20 For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities, His eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood from His workmanship, so that men are without excuse. 21 For although they knew God, they neither glorified Him as God nor gave thanks to Him, but they became futile in their thinking and darkened in their foolish hearts.…

    As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark; and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. (Matthew 24:37-39)

    – For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father's glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what he has done. ((Matthew 16:27)

    "Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you unexpectedly like a trap. For it will come upon all those who live on the face of the whole earth. Be always on the watch, and pray that you may be able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the Son of Man." (Luke 21:34-36)

    Watch a few of the many testimonies on youtube of people who hated God and now love Him because they now understand.

  36. jmg94j Posted on March 24, 2018 at 2:46 pm

    I knew instantly that you were full of crap. You said that you became a Christian because you didn't want to burn in the lake of fire. You admitted that you already believed what you were reading before you claim that you became a believer. The question that you be asking yourself is, how did you determine that what you were reading was God's word? Do you really think that God loves you so much, that he is going to torture you for all eternity if you don't love him back? Does that make sense to you?

  37. Michael Rehkop Posted on June 26, 2018 at 10:11 pm

    apologetics have nothing to do with making excuses for the bible. Your faith wasnt holy spirit inspired. Its was emotional diatribe.

  38. John Waters Posted on September 3, 2018 at 11:20 pm

    Props for trolling, but I dont see the joke. Is it that you understand all the good reasons to not be a christian, but stay one anyway? You're the joke for this, buddy.

  39. anonymous johnson Posted on September 30, 2018 at 10:32 pm

    Matthew 5:22 says not to call anyone a fool.

  40. bj hart Posted on November 18, 2018 at 11:24 pm

    you were never a Christian-enjoy your reservations in the lake of fire

  41. Michael Carter` Posted on January 30, 2019 at 11:44 pm

    that guy needs a hair transplant ASAP.

  42. Glassgothgirl Posted on February 8, 2019 at 5:58 am

    I'm in the midst of deconverting from Christianity right now. I've watched a lot of deconversion videos, apologetics, and counter-apologetics. Ironically, it's what I see and read from Christians that pushes me farther from the faith. Seeing Christians demean those walking out the door only makes me want to walk away faster.

  43. Marlin Perry Posted on April 11, 2019 at 3:10 pm

    Jesus Christ was the greatest StarWars character of them all. "Luke, I AM my father".  Pure fantasy. A free gift of salvation….. PLUS TAX. The dude that made your body and mine is ALWAYS in need of your body to live through. He's always got to use a weird guy in a public park. Let's see God make a YouTube channel. Oh yeah, his ways are not our ways. Excuses Excuses. Unfalsifiable fantasy.